Coffeeshop Conversation

Coffee cup

Air-conditioned coffee shop,
conversations bleeding into
silent tables,
voices speaking about conceptions
of God
or meditation

And addictions.
And relationships.

I want to interrupt
but don’t.

I wonder if I
arrived here
drawn
by those invisible connections

The Enlightenment
has denied me.

Time

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Time Moves On

In youth we come through our bodies as explorers
Seeking and measuring
Astounded and disappointed
As we grow into ourselves.

In our long midlife, we travel our path
Forgetting and wandering
Sometimes grateful, mostly blindly seeking
The more we yearn for.

Now, our bodies re-astound us
Aching and refusing
Complaining and attacking
Reminding us of time.

Time

Watching Time

In youth we come through our bodies as explorers
Seeking and measuring
Astounded and disappointed
As we grow into ourselves.

In our long midlife, we travel our path
Forgetting and wandering
Sometimes grateful, mostly blindly seeking
The more we yearn for.

Now, our bodies re-astound us
Aching and refusing
Complaining and attacking
Reminding us of time.

Christmas Wrong

Christmas is a time of
difficulties and disappointments,
Santa failures
And other losses.

The dogs of hope
snap at the turkey bits
they’ve been whining for
and drop them, snarling.

Joys are seen
backwards in mirrors:
coloured lights on others’ houses
as I drive away.

And yet …
and yet in the darkness
some small light, hidden,
that I can hold

And nurture.

Questions

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Questions

What does it mean
to love yourself –
other than the herky-jerky
I’m okay; I am okay; I am okay?

What does it mean
to be compassionate with yourself
other than accepting the lust for
more chocolate, more wine, and even the occasional secret
cigarette?

What does it mean; what does it mean?

Who am I
and why do I want
to know this?

What does it mean?

Paris, November 13, 2015

Peace sign with Eiffel Tower
Ah, Paris

I have a horror
hangover:
a surfeit of tv dribbles
repeating;
the images and words

addictive
and numbing.

To look away, to change the channel,
I switch to a story of plotted
murder where the killer
is named and blamed
and hunted and destroyed.

When I can’t resist looking back,

the bodies still
lie on the street.